Body: NO ONE...repeat: NO ONE deserves this. But there ARE assholes in the world that do this to people...so all of you better think of what you're doing to someone else before you even start some shit. Sometimes just a simple hello, a smile...just a hug can make someone's day a whole lot better. & hopefully all of you out there know who to go to when you need them. So everyone read below the stars, & copy & paste what you see. Cuz no one deserves this.

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Popularity Kills!-This is soo sad! and depressing just be nice and give some one a hug or smile today!

Dear Diary

They told me that I was the ugliest thing they'd ever seen, and i started to cry.

I went home and Jake called me.

I thought the day would get better.

But he told me that long distance relationships dont work out.

He lived in California, and I moved to Michigan.

Then I told him I loved him and that I missed him.

He told me that the only reason he ever went out with me was because was a joke, and he was

dared to.

Then he dumped me.

We were going out for two and a half years!



November 9,1999



Today got a little better.

I miss jake so much you dont even know diary!!!!

But he even changed his number so I wouldn't call him.

But the most hottest guy at school asked me to the dance!

And those prissy girls that said im ugly let me hang out with them at lunch today.

It was cool!!



November 10,1999



I'm crying right now... turns out that hot guy was a jerk at the dance he poured his punch on me,

and those girls ripped my dress and everyone started laughing.

Then my grandma told me today that mom and dad got in a little car accident today at work.

They're in critical condition, they might die.

I can't write anymore.



November 11, 1999



Todays a saturday... but me and grandma were at the hospital all night long.

Dad died this morning.

Mom is going to live, but she's crippled for her life.

I wanna die too.

while we were at the hospital grandma found out that she had cancer in her stomach.

She has to go on chemo-therapy.

I cant believe daddy died.

I'm crying more then I have my whole life.

I'm in shock.

I cant write...I'm too tired.

I need sleep.



November 12





Daddy is not dead!

He can't be!

Its all a dream.

My life is perfect.

Jake still loves me.

I can barely write.

I'm crying too much.

I wanna die.

Take me.

Bye...



One day later, Lisa was found dead in her basement.

She had hung herself with a yellow rope.

I am her mother.

My name is Maranda Gonzalez.

The reason I wrote this e-mail to all of you, is because no one else deserves what my daughter had.

Please remember that everyone needs love.

Everyone needs a hug everyday.

No one should be made fun of, or insulted.

No one deserves to die like Lisa did.

All of you please dont be the popular prissy girls that put other people down to make themselves feel better!

Please dont be the awful posessed date for the dance that makes people cry.

Now please do me the honor of sending this to as many people as you can think of.

So that way everyone will know not to be a jerk.

Thank you.

Everyone who send this will be rewarded with a random act of kindness this i promise you.

everything that i have worked for is now gone.
all the friends that i made, turn out to be liers.
all my hopes and dreams, were burned to dust.
and now in the end, it doesnt matter anymore, i dont matter anymore, becuase i hate every inch of what i have become.

hayley please call me .....

Hey fill this out please !

1. Who are you?
2. Are we friends?
3. When and how did we meet?
4. How have I affected you?
5. What do you think of me? (honestly)
6. What's the fondest memory you have of me?
7. How long do you think we will be friends?
8. Do you love me?
9. Do you have a crush on me?
10. Would you kiss me?
11. Would you hug me?
12. Physically, what stands out?
13. Emotionally, what stands out?
14. Do you wish I was cooler?
15. On a scale of 1-10, how hot am I?
16. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
17. Am I loveable?
18. How long have you known me?
19. Describe me in one word.
20. What was your first impression?
21. Do you still think that way about me now?
22. What do you think my weakness is?
23. Do you think I'll get married?
24. What makes me happy?
25. What makes me sad?
26. What reminds you of me?
27. If you could give me anything what would it be?
28. How well do you know me?
29. When's the last time you saw me?
30. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
31. Do you think I could kill someone?
32. Are you going to put this on your XANGA and see what I say about you?
33. Anything else you want to say?
34. Did I ever tell you how nice your shoes were?

Sorry, I havnt updated really dont mind the layout I know it's really not like me. Dont ask. By, the way I'm sharting to get worryed about mike i hope he's ok. I'll post tommorow i promise.                                                                  -edit-                                                                                                        Oh and just ok my brithday is in 8 days and I'll fildaily be 16. Oh sweet 16. (wish me years). much loves. 

I'm so upset , am crying and I have no one to turn to I wish I had someone to turn to. Right now for some reason I think it wound of been better to of stayed with my father (with out hurt = him infringing on me) it wound of been easier for my mum. I am just so scared right now. my mum she's going agian right now its so sarey but she hurting me. i just wish i had someone no matter what i say what anyone says i cant do it alone noone can.

-aly-

* Dont get me right i think .no i know i made the right destion.( about my dad - and yes i still desite him) * 

'im not okay.. you wear me out..' me